#Food4Thought – Surround Yourself W/ The Right People

This week I had the privilege to work with two amazing artists, as well as, get a photo session in for Senior pictures for a friend’s daughter. Even though I am having a moment of feeling stuck right now where I am at, I surrounded myself with the right people this week outside of the social media chaos.

I had the honor to add local model/R&B singer, Laurel Lynn, to my portfolio, as well as, collaborating my first double shoot with Hip-Hop artist and photographer, Mario Street.

I also got out to karaoke, not once, but twice, this week for the first time in a few months. It was nice to regroup with “the click” for two of my boys’ birthdays this week. I guess it was a good prep for when I re-unite with my mother and famous Cher impersonator, Candi Stratton, for the first time in three/four years. Which is what I need most right now in my life.

What helped with surrounding myself with the people and be able to spend some quality time with my performance mom is allowing myself to recollect and get a new boost of inspiration with the long road I am on in my journey. Especially, with the people who are supporting and helping me continue to keep my feet running with this track.

For me, it is an honor to be able to work with other artists to help brand my name and improve my skills. I made a joke the other day with Mario about how I am an invisible celebrity. How not many fans know of me, but numerous artists do. I also admitted how I preferred it that way as well.

I guess you can’t blame the fans, since I don’t look nothing like how I use to when I worked and performed in the LGBT community four years ago, but I like being low keyed in a sense, while I am doing what I got to do to improve my skills and continue to work on me on the military end.

As frustrated as life gets, you just got to keep pushing no matter how hard it gets. There are days I just feel like giving up, but I look back at all the other times I gave up on things, and it just isn’t an option anymore. I guess a few poems written will help set my confidence back on track where it needs to be to keep on keeping on.

I hope this blog gives you new energy to continue to focus on your passions in life and live free, not as a puppet for any society’s norms. Living free equals happiness. Unfortunatly, it’s a continuous road.

Check out Laurel’s music here: http://www.reverbnation.com/mzlaurellynn

Check out Mario’s music here: https://soundcloud.com/mario-street

#FoodForThought – The Miniature Horses Tried To Eat Me!

I haven’t been much of a chatter on my blog for awhile.. I apologize. I am busy trying to get my life situated permanently and it is not an easy thing. Especially for those who struggle from within regardless of the battle. I keep a lot of personal struggles to myself, even though I talk about my PTSD and my Medical Board process to be medically discharged from the military in just a broad aspect.

Recently I had a small fall through with not feeling like going anywhere with my life. It does get frustrating, because at times I feel I should be where I need to be at this particular moment, but then there are days, like today, to remind me that I still have work to do to get to where I want to be in my life. Failure only happens when you quit trying. I refuse to quit. My marshmallow peeps (my support system) knows that.

Writing has been very therapeutic for me, but this summer, I fell a bit away from my motivational habits. The solitude has been relaxing. That is when I had the opportunity for it. I am hibernating more this fall for school and my writing projects I been lacking on. Yes, that is right. I have returned to my publishing process for my second poetry book called, Underground Poetry. After that I can focus back on my novel stories, Psychological Demons & Twenty-One Days.

Along with my second publication will come with a sale on my first book and kindle version, as well as, a sale on my new book! Stay tuned! It’ll be released in the next few weeks!!

I am continuing to hibernate, because I have added to my PTSD treatment with Equestrian Therapy in Wisconsin. Every Wednesday I am traveling to a horse ranch for the therapy. This week will only be my third week, so I am only in the introduction stage with the horses at this moment. It was eventful this past Wednesday, as the miniature horses confused me with food and took a bite out of my shirt I was wearing. Horses are beautiful creatures, but it’s been about 16 years since I associated with any, so it is a bit intimidating at moments, like when I am at their blind spots. Maybe the horses can provide me inspiration with my stories I want to share or add flavor to my poetry and photography skills.

My next non-school project is re-editing my website to a more cleaner image, and I will start making  graphics for my poetry and quotes to express and share with my audience. Thank you for your support and patience. It’s back to work for me though. Summer is over.