The Miami Dolphins Should Have Their Own Lifetime Movie

Courtesy of “Quotes For The Mind”

Better yet, let us feed another desperate reality television show on Richard Incognito to the eyes of children because they don’t have enough of that expressing on today’s television programs. Criticism has weighed in heavily with the bullying episode of Jonathan Martin vs. Richard Incognito down in the land of Dane County. I find it surprising on how many people are supporting Richard Incognito, even with the proof of the voice mail from Jonathan Martin’s cell phone in NFL’s hands.

Courtesy of ESPN

Now, Incognito is a big dude. So why does he need to bully to prove his strength and his alpha personality, so to speak? Why is it always the bigger kids are the ones showing more short-man syndrome than the smaller kids? I just don’t understand the behavior at all nor understand how adults think it’s okay for kids to grow up as bullies. Haven’t we learned yet that the smaller children, usually the ones with the brains, usually always comes out on top in the end? It’s karma. Try to keep others on the bottom of the food chain, you become the bottom. That is, if they don’t commit suicide. Another sour taste in the mouth. Don’t you think?

Too many have given up on their lives due to hurtful words. Hell, if you look at it in a world’s perspective, humanity is known for it’s bullying affect to the rest of the species that are trying to co-exist with us. What is the reason behind it? Insecurity? Listen, I got my own insecurities too. All of humanity does one way or another, but I also have enough confidence and morals to know what is right and what is wrong in any given situation. The confidence builds with the education I am interest in and allow myself to take in.

Courtesy of CBS Sports

The stories I hear about this situation makes me sad. Whether to believe them or not is not the case here. So what if Jonathan Martin isn’t mentally strong as the average man should be. So what if he’s a bit sensitive, but I strongly believe the strongest men are those who aren’t afraid to show their emotions from time to time. He didn’t feel he found the support he needed so he removed himself from the situation instead of hurting himself and hurting someone else like Richard Incognito. 

Do I blame him for walking away and reporting the situation? No. I don’t usually take sides on situations, but bullying and people who support Incognito is ethically wrong. It’s just sad that there isn’t enough of people raising their voice in awareness of bullying. Yes, I also feel we all need thicker skin, but who here really has thicker skin? The one who chooses to lash out on verbal abuse, possibly violence, and become the one people feared, or the one who stayed civilized as possible and did what he has simply learned. We are not taught the same with how to handle a problem that may be getting out of hand. We are taught by what our nurturing elements teach us whether it’s family or friends. That is if we are taught at all. Let’s look at the brighter side if this. Let us be happy that he swallowed his pride and got the help he needed when he needed it before it was too late.Let us look at Martin being the stronger man in this for getting the help he needs instead of letting it run his life or his NFL career in this case. Let us pray that he recovers from the emotional scars that were stabbed in his back from his own teammate that outsiders would have considered like family. Isn’t that how we see all our favorite teams? All we see is the “bromance”, not the struggles behind the cameras when they go off air. This is just some old dirty laundry of Incognito’s that Martin just had the courage to hang out on the clothesline. Whether he was right or wrong to be the one to do so, karma and time will reveal the truth of it. Now I can possibly see why Reggie Bush wasn’t hesitant to leave the team when he was released.

Until Next Time…

2013©H.M. Gautsch

The Pros & Cons of Social Networking & Life

I am sitting here awaiting for my French Roasted coffee to get done brewing so I can sabotage my body with more caffeine that it probably doesn’t need for the rest of the year. There has been days I find myself thinking of, “Why the hell am I still putting up with the crazies on the social networks?” and “Bugger, I am just as addicted as majority of the World’s population with this internet bullshit.” 

Some days a lot can get done for me on this desktop computer, other days, not as much. It’s really a hit or miss. There are days I wish I was capable of writing a whole segment without the clicking of the keyboard, but in reality, the rhythmical sounds of the letters pounding are what helps me write the words to either my blog, my poems, or the short stories/fan fictions I write.

Speaking of getting things done, instead of writing this blog, I really should be putting my laundry into cleanse to keep my OCD maintained for the day; to help keep my mind feeling, “Hey, I am not a complete bum, I accomplished something today!” But, instead, here I am, writing in my blog once again, being a bum.

Now, I know people of both worlds that are on top of their modern technology and has devices and advantages that the tribes of Africa probably have not ever heard of before. I also know people of all walks of life, even a few actors, who try and stay away from the social media/networking fiasco. I know people, here in good ole’ America, who are still stuck all the way back to the 60s and 70s and live only off of what their list of necessities displays. If I didn’t have the dreams I have today, I would be doing the same. My ultimate goal in life, other than writing and possibly acting, is being planted into Mother Earth, on a mountainous range and living my life on a small horse ranch with a few dogs. Now, when I say a few dogs, I probably mean about six-eight dogs.

I envy the ones who can stay away from what is trending. What aches my heart the most with the social networking and media, is how everyone is in everyone’s business. Not only that, but the negative remarks from those who are filled with jealousy and hatred because one person is more successful in life than they are. I am not saying I like all the entertainers tastes or actions with how they do things in life, but disapprove it all you like, Miley Cyrus had an intelligent sense with her recent actions and artistic field of music videos. As all the “haters” react to such immaturity, she is banking um-teen millions of dollars just for your negative remarks. Like I said, it’s brilliant, but I will re-track on that remark with, it wasn’t humble.

Also, with this particular con trait of social networking, the comments I even see on YouTube or other pages, is just beyond distorting. It sinks my heart and twists my stomach beyond belief. What ever happened to the upraising of, “If you don’t have nothing nice to say, don’t say it at all?” Can someone answer me this? You even have grown ass adults commenting on children’s video accounts, who have dreams, and talking down on these children with no filter. It’s sickening. You think that, with the “security” of a message board and keyboard, you can just say whatever it is you like? They are children! They are meant to imagine, dream, and live a wondrous fantasy life, before reality bites them in the ass after high school. Let them live their childhood. Don’t crash it. Please! Enough of this negative bullshit.

Now on to the bright side. If it wasn’t for the inventions of social networking, would I be able to keep in touch with my friends I made in Iraq. Never would I be able to keep encountered with other cultures and other languages. Oh crap, my liberal side is coming out. If it wasn’t for the inventions of social networking, would I have numerous connections, that I haven’t taken advantage of. I mean, I have Andrew Zimmern, Blessid Union of Souls and Tray Chaney following me on Twitter, among other verified celebrities; but you would never hear me bragging about it and throwing it up in the little bio section on Twitter. To top that off, I am able to talk to some of my favorite actors from time to time, like Kristin Bauer Van Straten and Peta Wilson. If it wasn’t for the inventions of social networking, I wouldn’t have the friends I have, from a distance and from all walks of life. 

And last, but very least, if it wasn’t for social networking, my works of writing wouldn’t be reaching out to the individuals it has reached out to.

Now as I utilize this blog, just like the rest of life and the rocks it throws at us, I just learned that everything we do, everything we encounter and all the lessons in life, there will always be pros and cons. It is up to us to filter out the cons and learn to be intelligent enough to ignore them, but also, grow enough to learn from them. It is up to us to embrace the pros and let them shine brightly in our vision, so we can blind out the cons of life, no matter how big the rock is that is being thrown at us.

Now off to do laundry. 

Until next time,

H.M. Gautsch©2013

Sack Depression Like You Are Clay Matthews

I am stepping away from my poetry posts, to share a little influence with you all. Life surely knows how to throw it’s punches. Am I right? It isn’t easy, but you do get stronger with time and the knowledge you prevail along your journey. One intel I will share about me is that I struggle with  post traumatic stress disorder and I have also struggled with depression from time to time. I was diagnosed in 2009, with years prior where I battled with denial and a negative surrounding. 

I guess part of my success with my issues, is I have accepted my mental disorders and I learned to research and expand my knowledge in the psychology field to see what works for me and what doesn’t work for me, as well as, understanding how my membrane works during my days on the brink.

Now, because I am diagnosed with both PTSD and depression, that doesn’t mean I am long in the face from day to day basis with no hope in life. Honestly, I do struggle with my faith from time to time, but it’s humane to do so. I truly believe that God wouldn’t give you the life you can’t handle. Usually I am like a rabbit, hopping around with a load of energy, with my personality and many wonder where a twenty-seven year old like me has so much spunk. Most of the time, people don’t think I am as old as I am, but not sure if that’s my personality or my young looks. 

Lately, I have been on another struggling bound in my life, but this time it’s different from the previous years. Instead of mixing medication with alcohol, I am hitting this thing head on without alcohol and chemicals that train the mind to be a robot. Well, that’s my experience with it anyways. Not sure if it was the chemical mixture of both, but I was numb with no feelings and/or angry with the World. My exes from previous years would tell you I was an “asshole” or a “bitch.” I was sour with life just rolling with it, but that was the past.

Also, when I use to drink, I was the life of the party, with my friends anyways. With my exes, it was usually drama and passing out. Today, I am social to an extent, but I’d rather just chill at home watching my favorite movies, cook and mess up my kitchen like a tornado hit it, and just write on my projects. I have been slacking with my fitness gig, I need to push myself back into it. I crashed and burned in March for overdoing my work outs with Insanity four-five days a week, plus kickboxing on the weekends, and gym time for two hours at a time, for at least three-four times a week. It was my distraction from drinking for awhile. I felt like wonder woman during the winter. Now, I am lucky if I get the motivation to hit the gym, twice a week. 

Anytime, I get frustrated with life, I look back at where I once was just a few years ago and where I am now, in the present moment. No, I am not talking about sitting on my ass and staring at my computer screen. I am talking about being nearly eleven months sober and about to publish my first poetry book for my audience, while I work on several novel projects and my personal life memoir as I reveal the journey that got me where I am today. For that, I want to re-post what I once posted over a year ago, about the natural therapeutic techniques that have helped me ten times more than just medication and counseling.

Natural Therapeutic Techniques


  • Moral Support
    – Emotional & mental support is the best whether it’s a significant other, family member, or a true friend. I learned to let go of the negative in my life finally after being afraid of it. It’s true, misery loves company and it is tempting to lock yourself in it’s comfort zone, but don’t. You will learn it’s just a black hole, preventing you from extraordinary things. Find friends and loved ones who treat you, the way you treat them, as if you are their World.

  •  Pets
    – I have two small dogs. I sometimes wish I had a bigger cuddle buddy, but at the end of the night, and looking pass the dog fur that has shed all over the apartment, and their imperfections, these two dogs are my mirror, so to speak. Rocky had a huge temper problem, like me, when I first got him over three years ago, but with a little work and discipline and unconditional love, he is secured in his relationship with me and snugs with me every chance he gets. Bear, on the other hand, loves to play and needs to be loved too much. He is just a lost cost, but he’s open my eyes to what I have been yearning for, for years now. I don’t how I would have gotten through most my bad days without having someone to go home to at the end of the day. Even if that person is a furry four legged pain in the ass. A great reason to not let go of your pet. You learn you need them as much as they need you. 


  • Grateful List
    – Make a list of the things  you’re grateful for and add a new thing daily. It’ll make your day go by so much easier and smoother. Big or small, for example. “I am grateful to wake up for another day. Thank you, Jesus.” -or- “I am grateful to not be in the wrong place, at the wrong time, to be committed to crimes I did not commit.” It’s all about perspective in life. Bottle half full, bottle half empty, or just drink the damn thing and go on with your business!

  • Foods & Beverages
    – To start the food and drinks transition, make a pros and cons list of the items you digest in your body. From my experience, It’s best to lay off the soda, pop, soda pop and replace it with green tea, black tea, chai, and water. As for the food intake, try to lay off the eating out, especially at fast food, and cook at home more. It’s fun overall, but it’s more fun when and if you can share the kitchen with a friend or a companion. I have a Culinary Management degree, there should be no exception for me, unless I work at a restaurant, but right now, I don’t. The biggest factor as well to live by, is of course, portions you eat. Don’t eat the same thing over and over and over again. Boring! Nor, don’t overload your plate with food you won’t eat. The problem with Americans is we tend to bigger eyes than we do our stomachs. We need to train our minds to eat to live, not live to eat. Educate yourself with nutrition, hell, even take a class. Nutrition was one of my favorite classes I took in college. Maybe I’ll take it again, for shits and giggles. 

  • Nature
    – I love the outdoors! There is nothing more peaceful than hiking in the bluffs that lie across the river banks of the grand ole’ Mississippi River. Nature is a key place, away from the city, or in an Eco-system park, if you can’t escape the city, that is purely right for meditation and catch up with Mother Earth. I am a strong believer that if you take good care of her, she will in return, take good care of you. I also grew up in the country, and when I can escape the current city I live in, I go home to my parents’ future retirement spot, let Mother cook me breakfast, as I start a bonfire without trying to burn our neighbor’s corn field down. Wisconsin has so much more to offer than the whole binge drinking atmosphere and reputation we carry. I just wish we, as the citizens, could look past that and conquer the issue, hands on. Also, it breaks my heart to see the frac sand mining companies destroy something so valuable just for the greed of money made of paper.

  • Music
    – Music is one of the best therapies for me. I am a huge music fan, considering I grew up to country music, hip hop music, real boy bands who are now men, alternative rock and Creed. Music has gotten me through so much in my early years as a teen, before I was diagnosed with depression. Today, music is a huge influence for my poetic findings in words. Which, ironically has also been a main therapeutic techniques for my bad days. Some of my favorite artists are Lady Antebellum, T.I., Eminem, George Straight, Faith Hill, Chris Rene, Flipsyde, & Creed, etc. I just realize, too many to list.

  • Movies
    – One of my favorite hobbies is watching movies, whether it’s movies I grew up too, for example, Kevin Costner’s Robin Hood or Charlie Sheen’s The Three Musketeers or foreign movies with my favorite actor, Roy Dupuis. Movies also trigger ideas and is an influence to my story writings. Unfortunately I am still getting use to the story concept of writing and deal with many writer’s block on this level. However, there seems to be a pattern here with the writing scheme. I don’t think I need another bulletin for it.

So the conclusion of this note is if it wasn’t for the alternative therapy techniques, I’d probably still be an alcoholic on medication, drinking my paychecks away. Great times! Even though I am on a small downfall at the moment in time, I know I’ll pull through eventually. I just need to let the roller coast it’s way through this current moment. But no, in all realness, believe in yourself cause someone else out there believes in you. Don’t worry about your mistakes, cause that’s what makes you and at the end of the day, we are all human. We were born to make mistakes and learn from them. Don’t be afraid to let go of the past, because once you learn to close the door of unnecessary, the door of opportunities opens for you.

~ Stay blessed,

H.M. Gautsch