My Everything (Poetry)


We met, love at first sight,
Unfortunately it was the wrong place at the wrong time.
I didn’t know what love was, but you swore it was,
But that was when my life was full of negatives, faux pas.
A one night stand at a time my heart was banned
From love, because of my heartaches
And the chains that wouldn’t allow me to let go of the past.
Bridges continued to burn over the years,
While a raging river was created through my fears and tears.
But what I’ve learned…
While the fires were distinguished in my heart,
I know I can be a hot mess, a painful stress
When it comes to trust and love,
But you showed me unconditional patience.
We’ve come and go, more so
I’m to blame with my nervousness
And fear of happiness.
But you let me fly like a butterfly,
To discover my wings and strengths.
Just to find myself back into your opened arms.
My everything, always putting me before your own.
Always being my rock, a dependent I can lean on.
My everything.
Even when I wasn’t trying, when I was barely breathing, 
when I felt my heart wasn’t beating.
When I felt like a nobody,
You’ve always exploit I’m the world to somebody,
to you and you alone.
Even when we carried our baggage claim into the mix,
Zigzagged back and forth in each others lives.
I’ve realized your love is my permanent fix,
With or without the sex.
I cannot think of my future projects,
Side tracked with my ex being my next
And only plight…
No longer am I afraid,
Time has proved you’re not a fade.
I could go on and on, but no words can ever replace,
The emotions that are flowing in my veins.
The healing of my abandonment and terminal pain. 
You’re my oxygen, You’re my toxin.
My krytonite, my knight in disguise.
My brother, my father teaching me wrong from right.
My sister, my mother showing me the nature of nurturing.
Main guy on the movie screen,
My vaccine after a bee sting,
My guardian angel who found his own wings.
My everything.

2014©H.M. Gautsch

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