Early morning thoughts with a cup of chai tea on the left of me. As Christmas is coming to a close, I can’t help but flashback to the days in Iraq. 50-60s degree Fahrenheit during the day and dropping down to the 30s at night. Snow was substituted by rain, which would produce a large amount of mud.
Now that brings me back to my life’s purpose. Spending nine years in the U.S. Armed Forces was a mix of opportunities and struggles, but coming out on top is the only way I can close that chapter. I meant that based on mentality levels, not necessary emotional or physical levels. Of those nine years, I haven’t done the bare minimum for my original dreams. It was like a construction zone off of I-90 in the summertime down in Chicago. A hot mess of a detour. But I have looked at this in a new light, recently.
The friends in my life are split when it comes to age, nowadays. Either they are older than me, like 8yrs+, or they are basically fresh into adulthood, mainly my artists friends are. They are working and trying to get somewhere, but too caught up in the game of life at the moment. So I watch from a distance, as I work on my own thing with my writing & photography, but if they ever need me or my advice, I am here with open arms, because we aren’t only a team, but a family.
Of course I spice my artistry up by putting music into the equation from time to time, but that’s not my main focus right now. Telling stories through poetry, prose, or novels, that are far from the norms of Hollywood, is where I am right now. Hopefully, maybe switch them into movies to tell my stories one day. If it wasn’t for my experience with the Armed Forces or deployment, I probably would still be kind of lost in the career aspect of things. It has helped me grow though and for that I am grateful!
Yes, I could probably be further in my music career today if I stuck to my writing and guitar lessons as a teenager, but I really didn’t have my heart into it at the point and time. So what is the use? With this squiggly line of a climb up the latter of success, I can mix and match more stories and express more thoughts through my own heart. I needed the education of the World, not just in little ole’ Wisconsin, so being able to step out of the comfort box and see the opportunity of the World through my own eyes and not being blind-sided by the media, is a blessing. Understanding other diversities, religions, and cultural environments, is a blessing.
I’ll be 28 in June. Some will debate about how young I still am just by the number displayed in this blog, but with the life I have gone through already, I don’t feel “young”, but yet, I don’t feel necessary old all the time either. I feel mainly as I am just being me and my time will come when it’s due. With the education, failures of past attempts of other careers, the supporters having my back, and the growth through life, I know I got this. It just takes time, persistent, & strong-willed, in the heart. Even with life struggles, as you get older, life gets better. Remember this small fact and the world will fall into your hands.
This advice doesn’t just fall in the path I chose. It also falls into any obstacle that comes with life, whether it’s family, career switch, or whatever! Find the strength within you to surpass it and follow your heart. I am not saying to drop everything and start over, but take the knowledge you developed in your years and feed it to the projects you want to succeed in life with. You be surprised on how many people are waiting to hear your stories and probably will be able to relate to them. Don’t live in fear.Hell, you may save somebody someday just by being you.
I am aching for 2014, because I know things will just keep getting better with filtering out the past, organizing and embracing the present, and planning for the the future. Ideas are already brewing up in this skull at the moment.
Until Next Time…